Ed’s Website is meant to help all of us interested in mental healing. I hope to be remembered as someone who got God’s message and passed it on. 💙
I have self esteem and delusional issues. Inferiority feelings go back to my childhood. At first light, I thought I was perfect. Then later on came guilt after I realized that I wasn’t.
Guilt happened because I was supposed to be perfect like Jesus. (Like those people in the ‘50’s family TV shows.) That’s what I perceived in Sunday School and church as a child. I failed numerous times. Those failures had me under pressure. Sin results in agonizing perpetual pain in hell’s fire. That’s what I heard from our fire and brimstone preacher.
My childhood family didn’t act perfect like the ones on black and white television.
I was born bipolar. My perception is often somewhat distorted by a brain disorder. Certain words that I hear can trigger racing or depressing thoughts such that I can’t rationally process certain messages before I’ve concluded a delusion. Sometimes positive… sometimes negative. That’s why I take preventative medications.
Writing with a computer word editing tool allows me to order my disordered thoughts by changing wording and words until my thoughts are more clear and ordered. Rarely do I type without editing. Sometimes it’s well after publishing. I’m not a great conversationalist either. Others generally do most of the talking.
The mentally ill are typically caught up in a dysfunctional web of wacky thought tangents. Life is a conundrum outside God’s domain.
I moved the wind from nowhere to nowhere
cradled among heaven’s bright and beautiful
unbound in uncharted abode
The reason for Ed’s Website is to help us heal and forgive just like Jesus Christ showed us.
All of us fully humans are subject to mistakes. When we project perfection onto ourselves or other humans, we’re making a mistake. Human perfection outside Jesus Christ is a short lived dream at best. Yet we strive for the “golden ring”. Or we place it in someone else’s hand because we want to feel that some can be perfect. So we project “perfection” into the work of another.
Christ is the only mistake free human work of perfection. God became a human teacher to complete His Spiritual (EMOTIONAL) message. So Jesus Christ has the one and only human “Golden ring”.
Jesus points us towards perfection… the middle of the road. He told us that we can help ourselves by helping someone else. That’s a bit off the beaten path.
It’s God’s good plan that when we help others, we’re not only loving others, we’re loving ourselves.
It’s Satan’s evil plan for us to ONLY help ourselves. That self-centered practice leaves us shallow and empty resulting in compounding or creating mental illness issues. And not just for ourselves. Others are affected by our words and behavior.
God in Christ is our lamp like the sun lighting the earth.
I frantically studied the Bible after my second full blown adult mental breakdown. I discovered that God loves me regardless of my flaws. I discovered that the ENTIRE Bible is not perfect but centers and focuses on Jesus Christ’s ministry… which is perfect. I further discovered that God’s presence is everywhere, all the time. And God loves us all. Good and bad. When we repent, we can love Him back. When we humble ourselves, we can heal.
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Ed’s Website – Words page 11
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