Life

An artist’s blind path.

1969 was the year I would have graduated high school but had different ideas.

Over the years I’ve had a number of favorite music artists. Many reaching the depths of my soul and lifting me out. The Moody Blues captured it the longest with this song.

Celebrate with me this beautiful song I call life!

Watching and Waiting,The Moody Blues – 1969

“Watching and waiting
For a friend to play with
Why have I been alone so long
Mole he is burrowing
His way to the sunlight
He knows there’s Someone there so strong”

“‘Cause here there’s lots of room for doing
The things you’ve always been denied
Look and gather all you want to
There’s no one here to stop you trying”

“Soon you will see me
‘Cause I’ll be all around you
But where I come from I can’t tell
But don’t be alarmed
By my fields and my forests
They’re here for only you to share”

“‘Cause here there’s lots of room for doing
The things you’ve always been denied
Look and gather all you want to
There’s no one here to stop you trying”

“Watching and waiting
For someone to understand me
I hope it won’t be very long”

I love this song, it talks to me. I see the first person as God. I identify with the mole. The mole reflects my life’s search.

I’m not 100% sure that the Moody Blues meant Watching and Waiting to speak about a search for God but that’s how it reads for me. 

And I found Him all around me! ❤️

The Mole

bold
grown old
events be told
time creates a hole
music deep in the soul
of the quiet shy broken mole
as darkness grows spirit pays the toll
then with light and persistence reaches its goal
like music makes silence so the diamond becomes coal
life managing death as mole plays his timely understudied role

”The Mole” briefly outlines my life as an artist. 

An explanation of the poem is provided below for the benefit of anyone who would like an explanation.

The Mole (summary)

I’ve gotten older and bolder. But as a young man the creative drive diminished. Yet art and music still lived buried in my soul. I’ve always known there’s something wrong with me. Depressed thinking feeds depression. It was eye opening to receive help with bipolar disorder. Help provided hope that I would enjoy drawing and guitar again. But a long absence had built a wall. So I started Ed’s Art Net and Blog to help tear it down. But without God’s hand, I would not be able!

God has been talking to me and helping me all my life. However, the greater portion of the time, I was consciously unaware of His presence. I wasn’t listening. I was more in tune with worrying about myself.

I became more conscious of God’s help after I retired in early 2020. You might say that I gained 20 20 vision… but you would be corny to say that. And besides, it’s an old joke now.

Moving forward

I want to return God’s help by helping you. I want you to know that you are important and worthy of love. If I’m worthy of His love, so are you! And so is anyone.

It doesn’t matter what I’ve done or what I’ve been through. It doesn’t matter what you’ve done or been through. God’s love is here for us. It’s here, there, and everywhere for us. All we needed to do was accept it. ❤️

By Ed Caldwell

Except for some unavoidable honey-dos, I pretty much goof off for a living now. My last career job was designing internet operating circuit boards along with a distinguished team of engineers, managers and support personnel. Prior to that I was an electronics technician evolving into circuit board design in the defense industry working with tactical missile systems. My first career job was a professional artist. During my younger years I worked many odd jobs beginning at age nine with a newspaper delivery route.

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