My Website
online since September 28 2007
I love working on Ed’s Art Net. My web work is cranium clumsy. In spite of that, I enjoy writing and editing. So I do LOTS of editing… it’s calming. With me it’s like shampooing… wash, rinse, repeat… drives my wife nuts. I have that effect on myself as well. The shampoo directions don’t say “wash, rinse, repeat once”. No, it says, “wash, rinse, repeat”… It takes a whole bottle to get my head clean. If my website had another name it’d be Calm Olive Branch Shampoo.
”A breath of fresh air.”
Nothing on Ed’s Art Net is designed using artificial intelligence. Seldom do I use intelligence. 😬 I do use AI sometimes for spelling and grammar check and vice versa. (autocorrect is occasionally, a misnomer)
There’s currently not a whole lot of music on this website unless you’re like me and hear it all the time. A bipolar brain is a busy place. There’s music in the air between my ears. 😜
Any browser search on eds-art.net should locate my website. This particular World Wide Web “place” is my therapeutic hobby. It’s a smattering of iOS emojis along with my honest to goodness old fashionably rendered art, words, and perhaps someday recorded music that all act as a calming island and mental balm. A mostly relaxing cyber “space” with lots of “calm” trees 🌴 and some messages to be shared with everyone old enough to learn about some important life and death conundrums. Which is probably around twelve or fourteen years old. Which may have been Jesus’s age when he first sought his real Father. 😇
The way I see things, we’re all God’s children. Patience is probably God’s simplest attribute. I think lovingly personable is His most prominent. How do you, or would you, feel about your own children? 🥰
I’m building Ed’s Art Net for my family and me. It’s an ongoing web publishing ‘work in progress’ and may simply end up as an offline family heirloom… daddy, pop pop’s old art asylum. My calming refuge in a disordered brain and a stormy world. 🌴
Ed’s Art Net is built from the inside out. Most often from an end or middle of a topic to a beginning. The content has been typically very disordered to start. Resolution develops over long periods of time… more astutely since December 2024. That’s when I discovered that my website had been targeted by Pegasus spyware. That software is used by various bad actors including governments to gather data. This knowledge inspired me to focus more on improving the clarity of my writing.
This web publishing effort replaced all my career design jobs with a spiritual twist. The inspiration for building a website came from my intense 2003-2005 Christian Bible study as I was searching for mental healing. I found help and I’m sharing what I learned along with what I’m learning.
So far, it’s been fun and challenging, kinda like cleaning up a mess in the yard during a storm. But it’s getting easier. Efforts entered a major paradigm shift when I discovered how to build text hyperlinks.
I’m working to a future audience (my kid’s kids, and so on) I’m frequently editing this website. At some point, I’ll have to stop. ❤️
More boring stuff about my website
September 28, 2007 – Acquired eds-art.net as my web domain and published my old artwork to the internet. The web address is https://eds-art.net and will probably not be changing…😜
March 2020 – Discovered how to build text hyperlinks.
July 2022 – Switched to WordPress as my web publishing tool in order to take advantage of its blog features.
November 18, 2023 – Changed the website name from Ed’s Art Net to Ed’s ArtSite and my tagline from “Casting Art to the Net” to “Casting to the Net”.
May 17, 2024 – Changed the website name from Ed’s ArtSite to Ed’s Website.
November 3, 2024 – Closed Comments… ended SPAM.
December 3, 2024 – Added MUSTARD SEED as the title. Before, it had no title… then in a flash of light… I heard a thought, it was a God wink grinning at me. 😶🌫️
December 10, 2024 – Changed the Ed’s Website name to MUSTARD SEED. Name and title are now the same.
March 27, 2025 – Removed the website name MUSTARD SEED and changed it back to Ed’s Art Net. Changed tagline back to “Casting Art to the Net”.
May 4, 2025 – Changed tagline to “Casting to the Web”.
This web place isn’t without cyber attack safeguards but it also isn’t the end of the world if Ed’s Art Net goes offline. 😊
I’ve been told that my website gives folks pause to think. 😎
Me
🐶 working on 74 years of breathing
I identify simply as a retired from working for a living family man. I like calling myself a commonologist. I like it because it reflects my stable demeanor. “Common…” because I’m no better or worse than anyone I have ever met or heard of except One. And I’m an “…ologist” because I’m fundamentally curious with a gift for the obvious. I like to believe I share those traits with a lot of people…
Susan, her sister and I are old friends. We lwere having our first and only lunch at a Sidelines Grill restaurant. The walls were covered with giant flatscreens. There was even a small one at the back of our booth. It was very noisy. The room was filled with people and little kids. I burped with my mouth open. It was louder than I expected. I did it unconsciously because I do it all the time at home.
Upon realizing that I just burped loudly in a public establishment, I said, “Whoops, excuse me.” Loud enough for anyone in earshot to hear over the visually blaring TV’s and people talking. Immediately my sister in law said, “We don’t do that in public!” She and my wife are southern born Christians with a penchant for manners. My wife retorts, “He does that all the time at home.” To which her sister exclaims, “That doesn’t make it okay!” To which I replied, “Sorry. I’ll try and do better… and maybe start practicing at home.”
I know things. Things like, don’t argue with a southern woman. Just politely answer them as best you can. And as far as my cell phone, like my manners, I don’t keep a constant eye on it either.
Susan knows things too. She told me my website sounds like a “preacher” talking. I certainly don’t deserve to be a preacher or even go to Heaven, but I look forward to the “new” of my inevitable eventual future. At least that thought softens my bad memories. The goal with my website is to soften yours too.
My last career job was designing internet operating circuit boards along with a distinguished team of engineers, managers and support personnel. Prior to that I was an electronics technician evolving into circuit board design in the defense industry working with tactical missile systems. My first career job was a professional artist. During my younger years I worked many odd jobs beginning at age nine with a newspaper delivery route.
My good friend Travis once asked if I thought God’s purpose for me was to be a teacher. I loved the question. Travis knows that I have some strong opinions. He loves me anyway! 😎
Gyroscope
My web friends at Starship Asterisk nicknamed me “Equine Locutionist” after my wacky associations with Mister Ed, the talking horse and my spiritual cyber demeanor.
I had dreamt I was a spiritual philanthropist. I’d been harboring a delusional belief that www.eds-art.net was going to save mankind from self-destruction. Not soon, but many years from now, after I’d passed. My thinking was that my website would eventually be widely read because I uniquely understood God’s message through Jesus Christ. And that everyone on earth would begin to understand that “us humans” had inadvertently added our own thoughts and words to God’s Holy Message. My website was going to correct our self destructive narcissistically focused path. Setting us sailing, as one happy and content Earth culture, upward and outward exploring God’s universe, pure of spirit and free from evil… It’s called grandiose thinking stemming from bipolar mania. God planted the mustard seed and I watered it.
Youth
My dad was mentally unstable. He frightened the hell out of me. At a young age I found myself hiding in my dark bedroom closet praying for God to put me out of my misery. I didn’t love my dad until after he passed and I grew up.
Church
I was indoctrinated as a southern Baptist between ten and twelve years old. I learned from a bully in my Sunday school class that he wanted to beat me up because I was a weak kid. I learned from whispers in the Sunday service congregation that the haggard drunk that sat in the back row didn’t deserve to be in church. I learned from my pastor that I was going to burn in hell for eternity unless I confessed Jesus Christ as my savior.
I somehow talked the bully out of beating me up. I became afraid of the haggard drunk. I walked down the aisle at twelve years old to be saved from burning forever in hell.
Breakdown
I stopped going to church and spent the bulk of the next forty some odd years as an agnostic. I had a nervous breakdown in 1977. My friends thought I was taking LSD so the doctor treated me subsequently. I had not taken LSD. I recovered in the hospital in about one week and was discharged. Still an agnostic but rattled.
In 2003 I lost my job to overseas outsourcing. I had another nervous breakdown. This time the doctors at the hospital looked for something to tag my behavior with. It was determined that I had bipolar disorder during and after my two week mental recovery.
My breakdown was much worse in 2003 than 1977. I thought I had permanently lost my mind and became very frightened and depressed that I would not be able to recover. My thoughts were all over the place. Mostly self loathing and distant from reality. During my breakdown episode I had thoughts about suicide and “saving the world”.
After I left the hospital, I started reading the Bible. I was looking for help with my mind. I was also working with my supervising mental health nurse and doctor to regulate my bipolar disorder symptoms. After several years we found a combination of medications that helped the most with stabilizing my anxiety, depression and manic thinking. The Bible connected me with God. ❤️
I didn’t find God throughout the Bible, just here and there in certain parts. Mainly in Job. I could relate to Job and later to Elihu. I felt God’s presence in God’s words as He addressed Job and his friends.
In the new testament, I fell in love with Jesus. So wise at thirty something. So beautiful and confident as the Teacher. ❤️
I found God in the Bible and also realized that He has been with me all my life… even when I was blind. I discovered God’s Spirit in Nature, like so many others did throughout our human history even before the Bible was written.
John
John was a simple fisherman and had the strongest emotional connection with Jesus of all the disciples. ❤️ John was deeply hurt and may have been very angry about Jesus’s “murder” by the Sanhedrin. We can certainly empathize with John but it seems wrong to place John’s words above or beyond Jesus’s words. Jesus never said that we would be condemned if we didn’t know and believe in Him. I think John was speaking to the Sanhedrin. Or people following the Sanhedrin instead of Christ.
Jesus
Jesus told us that we needed to follow his Father’s rule. Jesus told us that he was the light and the way to his Father’s house. Isn’t Jesus simply telling us to love each other following his example? Some people I love and love me back are agnostic, atheist, Buddhist and simply other than “Christian”. I don’t think I should try and change their “religion” since they try their best to follow Jesus’s behavioral example. It seems to my disordered but stable brain that we haven’t properly understood the Bible. For two millennium.
Summary
I’m just a disordered man who deeply loves his family, God and Jesus along with my other friends. I know that it’s crazy, but I want the world to be like Heaven someday. So I built this website to help me deal with the ugly side of the news and my own shortcomings. ❤️
Ed’s Art Net has been a part of my mental healing process since its inception. God, His many helpers, and this website are helping orient my mental and spiritual balance same as a gyroscope helps steer a starship.
I prayed as a young child for God to kill me. I was having what I know now as a nervous breakdown. My brain felt like it was going to explode. It was very high wired stress from my father’s violent anger filled episode. I wanted to die. God heard my prayer… I have a very loving family that Susan and I made. I’m predominantly stable, thusly acceptably functional and want to see my grandkids grow up. God answered my childhood prayer in that dark closet, but He didn’t do what I asked. ❤️
It’s arguable that the world will become like heaven when Jesus returns. When He first walked the earth, the disciples thought Jesus was going to right all wrongs and become king over all the earth in their lifetimes. Then Jesus told them that He was going to die. That shook the disciples to the core because they didn’t understand. They had this grandiose idea that they were going to experience “heaven” on earth.
Then Jesus was killed by the ruling court as punishment for claiming to be the messiah because that threatened the power of the religious ruling class of the day.
Three days later, Jesus rose to life from death and showed the disciples the reality of what He’d been teaching. Jesus ate with them after His resurrection. He showed them His wounds. The disciples were absolutely changed by this from simple men to believers in Christ willing to die or READY to die for Jesus’s Teaching.
God works in mysterious ways and understanding never quite reaches us. It probably won’t until we are in God’s presence in Heaven.
Some of the friends I’ve known think religion and God is BS or have their own ideas about loving God. Most of my friends aren’t “religious”. Some of my friends are deeply religious. The only common “religious” thread between us is when we share emotions.
Loving one another is where the rubber meets the road. Love gives us traction. Sharing hate, sets us off sliding into a ditch.
I’m getting old and older now. I’m feeling the weigh station coming up on the horizon. The last thing I want to do is start an argument. I had enough of arguing when I was young. I’m not Charlie Kirk. I’m Ed Caldwell. I just want to share my point of view with the web without debating the people that have a different point of view. We all have common ground when we love each other for who we are.
Even the mentally ill can find healing help because Jesus is watching and waiting in everyone’s repentant heart.
Each of us has our own point of view.
Our opinion matters but it’s our heart that counts. ❤️
I painted with a child’s hand. I write with a child’s thoughts and a wacky doodle mutt’s demeanor.
Ed 🐶
More boring stuff about me
As far as my spiritual writings, I identify with Elihu in the Bible book of Job. I don’t agree with following the crowd. Compassion is most easily shared between two or three individuals and hysteria is what’s most often shared amongst a crowd.
I inherited my mom’s sense of humor and my dad’s mental illness and talent. I’m no angel. I’m a work in progress. I’m a wacky doodle mutt relaying an age old message. If I love, my conundrums resolve. If I hate, I make conundrums. Simple as that. 💙
I just hope that I eventually get a new and very traversable spaceship with a 360 degree view. ♾️
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Edward M. Caldwell
‘Fresh Air’ from – Georgia, USA
Favorite book – Job (probably the oldest book in the Bible)
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